To pretty to hate

Ok - so I hate the cold, but the Fall colors around here are too beautiful to hate. My buns are freezing, and it's not gonna get better, but at least I have great sceenery to warm me up. When the snow hits, it will be WAY colder, but it has it's own beauty. The picture of the red trees is right down the road from my house. So awesome!

Recall

OK - forget everything I said in my last blog about Paul. I withdraw my kind thoughts and cherished memories. Up until this morning, I thought that love really did conquer all. I thought that choosing to love someone whether they hurt you or not, is where it's at. Well, I was wrong. Love doesn't conquer all, only what it is given access to. If someone doesn't want your love, don't give it them. You're not bettering yourself or them by giving them soemthing they don't want. It's totally draining, and you end up feeling like a piece of crap when the only time they contact you is when they want something (even AFTER they hurt you without cause). I have come to realize that just because a person is your treasure one day, doesn't mean they won't turn on you the next. And holding on to what you remembered them to be is just living in a dream world. NOT REALITY. So, in order to process this bull crap from such an adversary, I withdraw my last statements of him and our relationship. I have decided to try things the way everyone else deals with jerks that act like that. Call it what is. Paul is a jerk. His new girlfriend is also full of crap. And they both treated me like crap so THEY could "move on". And since he won't return my calls or emails unless he wants money, I am taking my anger out in a public forum. Be forewarned, I'm pissed off and I'm not taking crap like this anymore. So don't talk nice to me about either of them. I am not going to be politically correct or "Christian" about it. After all, no one's being "Christian" to me. He could have moved on without being mean, like I did a LONG time ago. But he had to literally CUT me off. And you know what? That's not going to happen again. No more Ms. Nice T. Don't think you can walk all over me or my crew without a fight. I won't take this laying down. I publically stated that his memory was to be cherished, and now I publically RECALL that statement. No treasuring necessary.

Yes, I even bore myself....

So needless to say the lifestyle up here is TOTALLY different than in Florida. I'm still trying to get used to the thought of "hanging out" meaning go sit in someone's living room and watch football and play Euchre. Huh? What ever happened to gold ol' getting your hottest gear on and heading for the latest clubs to party till the sun comes up "hanging out"? And it seems like EVERYONE my age is married, especially if they have kids. There are some Carmelites (the city I live in) that are older with kids and divorced, but noone my age. And alot of the people that are single are hyper-fixed on their future mate. I'm just not used to that train of thought! But I am trying to fit in. I figure my friends and I can meet in the middle. We won't club EVERY weekend, and we'll be home before 3 AM, and I'll conceed to a few bonfires and random card games with a smile. Oh, and since there are apparently NO single guys my age that are brave enough to chase a wild child like myself, I've taken to dating the younger crowd :) Hehehehehehe :) So, in the pics you'll see my new "crowd" at one such bonfire, acting as wild as they know how. Oh, and no, I wasn't high at the time. I was just smiling so much from having such good, clean fun that my eyes disappeared!
On a sadder note....my x-boyfriend of almost three years who became one of my best friends this whole last year, has randomly decided (not a week after promising to be my "friend forever") to "cut ties" with me. Needless to say, I am devastated, and unable to understand why anyone would turn on me like that. Well, I do get it. Basically, he's started dated an old mutual friend and she somehow now totally wants him as far away from me as possible, since I'm such a "negative force" and all. And apparently "God" does not want people who were once in a relationship to communicate with each other once it's over. Funny, "God" wasn't to upset about it before he starting dating my old "friend". Do I sound OK with this? No, I'm not. But, alas, time heals all wounds. In the meantime, I would like to commemorate this time in my life with a reminder of the good times Paul and I shared, and that I will treasure forever. And remind you all, that love covers a multitude of sins, and sticks closer than a brother, and that's why it's so rare. But that makes it precious, and important enough to remember.

Oh, and just to bring a smile back to your face and mine, I have included an image of TRUE love. What?! It could happen!!!!