Recall

OK - forget everything I said in my last blog about Paul. I withdraw my kind thoughts and cherished memories. Up until this morning, I thought that love really did conquer all. I thought that choosing to love someone whether they hurt you or not, is where it's at. Well, I was wrong. Love doesn't conquer all, only what it is given access to. If someone doesn't want your love, don't give it them. You're not bettering yourself or them by giving them soemthing they don't want. It's totally draining, and you end up feeling like a piece of crap when the only time they contact you is when they want something (even AFTER they hurt you without cause). I have come to realize that just because a person is your treasure one day, doesn't mean they won't turn on you the next. And holding on to what you remembered them to be is just living in a dream world. NOT REALITY. So, in order to process this bull crap from such an adversary, I withdraw my last statements of him and our relationship. I have decided to try things the way everyone else deals with jerks that act like that. Call it what is. Paul is a jerk. His new girlfriend is also full of crap. And they both treated me like crap so THEY could "move on". And since he won't return my calls or emails unless he wants money, I am taking my anger out in a public forum. Be forewarned, I'm pissed off and I'm not taking crap like this anymore. So don't talk nice to me about either of them. I am not going to be politically correct or "Christian" about it. After all, no one's being "Christian" to me. He could have moved on without being mean, like I did a LONG time ago. But he had to literally CUT me off. And you know what? That's not going to happen again. No more Ms. Nice T. Don't think you can walk all over me or my crew without a fight. I won't take this laying down. I publically stated that his memory was to be cherished, and now I publically RECALL that statement. No treasuring necessary.