I Need a Nap

It's been quite the crazy month around here. If I were a rock star, I'm sure all the rushing around wouldn't bother me in the least, but, alas, I'm a single mom running myself ragged. There are positive and productive results, of course. Mariah has a bang-up 14th birthday bash. It was her first co-ed party, and the boys were lining up like it was ladie's night. I had about 25 kids there, at least half of them boys that I spent most the night trying to keep off the girls. Mariah's 2nd cousinNick was there, and my support group (Mom, Dad, Mona, and Rachy) showed up too. It was raining snow, or sleeting, or whatever, so I really appreciated having some of my friends show up too! I love being Mariah's mom. She's adorable and compassionate, and beautiful to boot! God has really given me a gift I don't deserve, and well above what I could ask or imagine. As with anything in this life though, being the mom of a dream kid can be a nightmare! Trying to balance freedom with responsibility is hard enough to manage for myself, and trying to simultaneously teach Mariah how to keep the balance is driving us both nuts. I'm giving it my best shot though, since I know she only has one parent to give her ALL she needs to make it as an adult in this world. Her dad is a wonderful man, but not having him in the house everyday means most of the child rearin's on me! Am I able? I guess we'll just have to wait and see....

I am ready to branch out more artistically. Things have tightened up so much at work that there is abolutely no room left to be creative. And all I do is cut and paste, cut and paste, all day long. Not sure I can stand it much longer! So, I figure if I allow myself more time to be creative at home, my job won't drive me so nutty. I went to the library and got some instructional videos on guitar. I can't wait to check them out! I have spent some time in Corel, just playing with some of Mariah's photos. It's fun to manipulate in digital. It's like being some modernized version of Picaso. I like to draw too, but I have gotten to that yet :)