Icee Tea Time

Redemptive Abundant Provision

2011-05-17T17:38:00.007-05:00

Just let me start by saying "GOD has a plan!". And more precisely, He has had a plan ALL along. I am amazed at every centimeter of it.
I just wrapped up a life-changing first year at The Deeper School. I couldn't have done it without the love and support of my family and friends. Thank you so much for allowing me the chance to learn how to be me out loud. I know, you're thinking, "Isn't that what you always did?", but brace yourself, there's actually more than meets they eye. And through these last nine months I've opened the treasure chest and I'm beginning to examine each tiny fortune God has placed in me. It cracks me up that He's been aware of it all and I'm just clueing in! I'm already really missing everyone in California, and I can't WAIT to return for 2nd year and move forward with my heart to spend LOTS of time traveling and singing people to Jesus!

The extra goodness I get to share with you is that my daughter just had her son, Bradley, last Thursday morning. And let me tell you that was a long labor. I didn't sleep for over a week - but how do you not say it was totally worth it? Mariah and Bradley are both healthy and beautiful. He looks so much like her that I feel like time has reversed somehow and I'm holding her again. Honestly, it's a bit weird! I am so glad to be blessed to be here in Florida with them both for the summer - which leads me to the story of redemptive abundant provision.

Right before I left CA for FL, my summer housing fell through. I literally did not know where I was going once I got off the plane. Good thing God did! My daughter's friend, Brittany, invited me to stay at a log cabin her family owned...right on the canal. I had it all to myself and it was gorgeous! It came complete with a loft, which, if any of you know me well, totally made my day. I spent several days there, and the day I had to leave, Mariah finally went into active labor. Which was great, since I had no place to go! We stayed at the hospital three days, with me not knowing where I was going once they discharged her. BUT GOD. Before I left CA, I asked God for two things in my new provision; my own room so I could really focus and a piano so I could get serious in my learning. During Mariah's stay at the hospital I met Ian's (Bradley's father) grandma, Rita. When I walked into her home I saw a piano. I thought, "Lord? Is this it?". I was happy to find her to be a daughter of the King, a musician, writer and artist. I didn't say anything about needing a place to stay because I knew God would open the door if that were the place. A half an hour later I met her daughter, Teri, at the hospital. It turns out that she was my vet from WAY back and remembered me well (all good!). When she asked where I was staying, I said "the hospital!". Well the next morning, Rita called and invited me stay with them for the whole summer, saying they had a room set aside for people in ministry. When I arrived, she offered me piano lessons! And when she showed me where I was staying, there was an electric guitar already in the room! AND it's my own room, with my own bathroom - I LOVE it! I'm sure the abundant provision part is obvious to you by now, but let me explain "redemptive". When I met Teri years ago, I was a newlywed and Mariah was not even born yet. We made a connection then that was awesome, but I never really saw Teri after that. I even made her dinner (try not to faint in disbelief, but I do actually cook)! But God knew that years away, my daughter would be in relationship with her nephew, and that we would re-encounter one another just at the time when I would need provision for ministry. He also knew that I would make mistakes in life that would delay ministry, yet He planted the seeds for provision WAY ahead even when I didn't know what I was about to walk through in life. This redemptive act of provision has completely shifted my understanding of the God we serve. Think about it - He planted a future provision for the steps I would be making toward my calling, knowing I would veer way off path and return, and lead me right back to the place of abundance in the very place where I first went off track. Ahhhhhhhh....God is so GOOD!

This morning I got my first lesson from Rita, whom I already adore. The last two evenings I've had lots of private face time with the Lord and been practicing both electric and acoustic guitar. This afternoon God allowed me to re-connect with Mike and Donna Carroll, two very special people who loved me well as a teenager. I can't believe how awesome it is for God to surround me with loving, tried and true friends everywhere I go! I am serious, I will never cease to be amazed :)

My next step is to begin work and allow God to lead me into His provision for the next year at The Deeper School. I fly back there September 1st, and I am super excited! Over the summer, I would like to raise the money for the school year, which is only $3200 if I pay in full at the beginning of the year. I'd also like to save toward the end of the year mission trip, which will likely be around $2000. It's also really important to me to become a stronger financial witness, so I am working really hard to clear up debt and walk in financial stability - yes, on faith! I really appreciate all your prayers and support. If you would like to contribute over the summer, you can still do that through The Mission, so that it is tax-deductible.

Please send donations for tuition and missions to: THE MISSION6391 Leisure Town Rd.Vacaville, CA 95687 These donations are tax deductible. Please do not write anything on the "Memo" portion of the check. Attach a note including my name and the purpose of the donation, "tuition" or "mission trip".
And one final note - my best friend and my friend are getting married - to each OTHER!!!! YEEHHHH!!!! Congrats to Sarah and David - I love you BOTH :*

Batteries For Life

2011-01-31T20:38:00.009-06:00

Well, ya' never know how much you use batteries until they stop working all at once! I am borrowing my roomie's laptop to give you a quick Hello, and ask you to pray for my batteries :) Just before Christmas, my laptop power cord caved, so I got a new one. The one got from EBAY, however, is not giving my laptop enough juice, so it won't power up. AND, when I got back from Indy, I tried to start my car, but, alas, the battery is toast. SOOOO...I would love to tell you great and marvelous things that are going on in my life and give you the awesome notes i have been taking, but there is bno life in my batteries. Please pray for life!
So, what's new? Well, I've started to play with paint :) This is a new endeavor, and sort of accidental. I only picked up the brushes last week because my laptop was dead and I can't do any work. But - as it turns out, a happy accident! Of course, I don't really believe in accidents, so I am glad God is giving me the chance to explore this side of His giftings for me.
Coincidentally (lol), in the same evening God gave me the opportunity to take piano lessons - for free! All I have to do is remember the lesson well enough to be able to pass it on. Easy enough! That's all I ever did to teach gymnastics anyway. The lessons are being taught in such a way that I can learn to get the songs I've written together, and it's helping understand how to lead the band. So good! The whole reason I came was to become a worship leader and teacher, and I see God setting me on my way. That's amazing, since this is not technically an arts school. Could've fooled me :)
Graham Cooke has been teaching us daily all last week and will do it again this week. WHAT A PRIVILEGE. Last week he actually took the time to pray for us all and bless us individually. That really meant a lot to me. Even after he blessed us, the school staff came around and blessed us too. Needless to say, I am feeling very blessed!
God has also continued to allow me to find treasures in the trash. Last week, I found an almost new stroller. Perfect for Mariah! I can't wait to bring it to her when I see her for her birthday in a few weeks. I love that God is using the Word He gave me, to look in the trash for everything I would need for the house, to bless my daughter. Especially since I don't think anything more will fit in this house!
I led my first whole set by myself last Thursday. And it was an acoustic set! My cool friend, Olaf (whom I call Thor), did an amazing job accompanying me. He was so great at following my lead, which was fantastic because I was foillowing the Lord's lead and didn't know exactly where I was going all the time :) I really felt blessed that it went well and to have the opportunity. I can't wait to see where the Lord will be taking me from here. Where ever it is - I will be singing! This Saturday we got to participate in a free song-writing class that Dan McCollom taught. I learned so much. I can't wait to learn more and continue writing.
Tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of my wonderful Mom's exchange of life for eternal life. I look forward to seeing her again. God has been so good to me in helping me through the missing her part. And I am blessed with an amazing family. We love each other well. Of course, Mom can take lots of credit for that. I am sure she will :)
For those who are praying for me, please continue to lift up Mariah in your prayers. She is doing well, and making good decisions. I am SUPER proud of her. Please pray that God give her direction for her life, and that she will feel confident to pursue where He's pointing. Pray for my Daddy, as I know tomorrow will be a very hard day for them, and I hate not being there beside Him. Pray the Lord sends His Holy Spirit to comfort Him through those who are nearby, and through His promises to him. Please pray also for my next steps. I would like to return to Vacaville, after spending the summer with Mariah in FL, to continue with second year here at The Deeper School. We've dug some pretty deep roots this year, as we will continue to do, and I look forward to learning what God wants to with all this depth in practical application.
If you are planning to send support, please consider donating toward my tuition. The balance I owe is $1300, which has to be paid by April 15th. I am also in need of rent for this month, $250, which is actually due tomorrow. So you can bet I'm asking Jesus to make a way on that one :))

Please send donations for tuition and missions to:

THE MISSION6391 Leisure Town Rd.Vacaville, CA 95687
These donations are tax deductible. Please do not write anything on the "Memo" portion of the check. Attach a note including my name and the purpose of the donation, "tuition" or "mission trip".

Please send support for living expenses to:

Terralyn Seilkop, 555 Elmira Rd. #103, Vacaville, CA 95687

Or send via Chase Quickpay to terralyns0@gmail.com

Thank you so much!

Who Knew?

2010-11-10T21:43:00.011-06:00

These past few weeks have been so eye-opening! I keep finding myself saying, "huh, who knew?". Much of what I am in response to is what I had known before, but did not actually live in it, or really know it.

Most recently, actually TODAY, I learned that wisdom, understanding, and knowledge are creative gifts. I've included the notes from class at the end of this post. You'll see what I mean. What that means to me is that I suddenly make a WHOLE lot more sense. I have actually spent a lot of time being aggravated that I couldn't figure out if I was a smart person or an artistic person. So, I couldn't decide whether to follow the intellectual path or the artistic path. To add to that, I found that I really liked both tracks! Up until today's lesson, that confusion kept me tangled up in myself and unable to produce much fruit. The good news is.....they are all the SAME THING! Who knew?

With my new perspective, comes direction. My goal in coming to school was to focus on music, learn an instrument, practice voice and be able to lead worship effectively and passionately. I am now confident I can do that. Actually, I have become so focused on that goal that I thought I had to ignore my other artistic talents and curiosities. The good news is that I now know that all of those thing actually work together, and inspire and spur on one another. I'm learning that even my dreams can be expressed creatively, which is driving me, ultimately, to excel in my original goal. This last Sunday, at a service designed to release the arts at The Mission, I put my hands to clay for the first time. I sculpted a wing that I once saw in a vision. As I finished, the woman leading that table saw my wing and invited me to an artists gathering. Then, this morning, we had a similar service at school. I drew my first lion, with the hopes to someday draw one I saw in a dream. I didn't get to finish, but I can't wait to get back to it. For the first time, I feel like ALL of who I am fits into one me. REALLY GREAT feeling!

God did some amazing things last month. Through you! Thank you so much for praying for me and supporting me financially. $700 for tuition came in last month! I almost passed out! But wait, there's more! When I got here, I had no furniture of any kind. God spoke to me and said, "Terralyn, you will find everything you need in the trash." OK, cooooool. So far I've found a nice futon, a couch, 2 chairs, 2 table lamps, one touch floor lamp (complete with energy saving lightbulb), a tv/vcr, a new O'Cedar mop, a wicker trash bin, AND a beautiful jewelry armoir. I have always wanted a really nice jewelry armoir, but never thought to actually have one. They are pretty expensive! An assignment we had at the beginning of school was to ask God to show a character and nature of Him that was missing in our life. I chose abundance. And then, a few weeks later, I find a beautiful, perfect

condition jewelry armoir in the place God told me to look for what I need....in the TRASH! I believe God gave me this gift to let me know that He is abundance, and all that He is, is mine :)

For those who are praying for me, please lift me up in regards to missing family. I'm really missing my Ma, and it's torture being apart from Mariah during her first pregnancy. I was a bit spoiled the last 5 years, being close to my Dad, Mom, brother, sister and Mariah. And now I'm super excited to be learning more of who I am, so I have more to share with my family and everyone else. But now is also a time where my loved ones are far away all at once. I miss them!

Also, pray for the finances to fix my ailing car. We're getting into rainy season, so I would really love to have wheels! If you are planning to send support, please consider donating toward my tuition this month. My payment this month will be around $900, and I have hardly any of that! It's due the 17th. Then next month I'll have one more $850 payment and tuition will be paid! YES! Also, we are heading to Tanzania for the mission trip in April. The total cost for that is $3000. I'll tell you more about that as I learn more myself. If you send support specifically for my mission trip to The Mission, make sure you include a note letting them know the purpose is specifically for my mission trip. Remember not to write anything on the memo line!

Please send donations for tuition and missions to:

THE MISSION6391 Leisure Town Rd.Vacaville, CA 95687
These donations are tax deductible. Please do not write anything on the "Memo" portion of the check. Attach a note including my name and the purpose of the donation, "tuition" or "mission trip".

Please send support for living expenses and car repair to:

Terralyn Seilkop, 555 Elmira Rd. #103, Vacaville, CA 95687

Or send via Chase Quickpay to terralyns0@gmail.com

Thank you so much!

Class Notes:
Dano 11.10.10
Creativity comes from the divine nature.
Being creative is manifesting the divine nature. No other being can be creative. They can create, but they are not creative.
Being creative is pulling from the unseen realm, and making something new visible in the earth.
Genesis 1:27 – God made man in His own creative image.
“Let us make man in our own image and let Him rule” – creativity and dominion are linked.
Creative people have the most authority in the earth.
If you want to transform a nation or city, be creative.
Once you understand something, you should be multiplying it.
For your creativity to have influence, you have to be vulnerable.
Follow through is often the key to breakthrough.
Rule and subdue are principals for multiplication.
Creativity levels are representations of how in touch they are with their divine nature.
Creativity is not a mood or a muse; it is the foundation of your creation.
Creativity is fundamental to our existence, and we need creativity to resolve the issues we face in life.
“Problems cannot be solved by the same level of thinking that created them.” Einstein
Learn through obedience, rather than hardship. LISTEN while things are going well. Learn by the voice of the Lord, by the study of His Word, and by the fellowship of the brethren. Strip away the externals and be vulnerable before God.
Recognize the beauty and creativity in fallen people, and pull the God in them to the surface. Draw them with the kindness of God.
Your creativity is linked to your transformational ability.
World-changer is a lifestyle. Transformation comes through authority, influence and favor, which are gained over time. Live with a journey mentality, not a destination mentality.
Wisdom, Knowledge, and Understanding
I Kings 4:29 – leadership and workmanship. Exodus 31, 35, 36 – God gave Bezalel and Oholiab and every skilled worker the ability to do the work in the temple through wisdom.
Daniel 1:17 – God gave knowledge, intelligence, wisdom and understanding. Daniel 2:20 – God reveals the profound and hidden things.
Isaiah 11:2 – the Spirit of the Lord rested upon Jesus (wisdom, knowledge, understanding).
Proverbs 4:7 – acquire wisdom, get understanding. Wisdom is supreme, therefore get it. Though it costs you everything, get understanding.
Proverbs 3:23 – BUY the truth and get understanding.
Proverbs 24:3-4 – a house is built through wisdom, established through understanding, and filled with treasures through knowledge.
Wisdom is the foundation. The “idea”.
Understanding establishes the idea, puts the idea in motion. The “how”.
Knowledge is the grasp of the inner workings of the idea. The “what”.
Proverbs 4:8-13 – esteem wisdom, and wisdom will exalt you; hold on to it and guard it, for it is your life.
Multiplication comes from giving your “little something” to God. Never call your “little something” nothing. Bring what you have to God, GIVE thanks to God, and let it be multiplied through breaking.
Be relevant to both heaven and earth. Don’t compromise, customize. Take what is in heaven and put it in an earth package. The goal is to be an ambassador – being from one kingdom, and representing another.
People who transform territories are relevant ambassadors, who keep themselves relevant, successfully connecting the two kingdoms.
Proverbs 2:6 – the Lord gives wisdom; and from His MOUTH comes knowledge and understanding.
Acknowledge that God gives you wisdom, and ASK for it.
Ephesians 1:15-18, Col 1:9 – Paul’s most common prayer for NT believers is for wisdom, knowledge and understanding.
Proverbs 9:10, Col 2:1-3, Romans 11:33 – knowing God gives access to wisdom, knowledge and understanding.
Acknowledge that God is your creativity. When you release glory to something or someone else, you de-throne God in your heart and therefore de-throne yourself and your own creative abilities.
Creativity gives you the favor to fill, multiply and subdue.
You can’t transform anything you don’t respect. Before you can lead people, you have to “get” where they are.
Chadesh (Hebrew) – new - to restore; rebuilt
Creativity is both variation and innovation.
The value of the song is its’ power in the seeker place, not the marketplace.

Deeper School For YOU!

2010-10-21T00:39:00.007-05:00

Well, everyday is more than an adventure out here. It is LIFE! I wish I had enough words, or just the right words to express what this season of life is birthing in me. I definitely feel like an entirely new creature everyday. We have spent time learning about the nature and character of God, learning how to live on the RIGHT (the resurrected side!) of the cross, and learning WHO God says we are.

This is the "I Am" statement God gave me. It is based on the prophetic words in my life, and the destiny God has spoken to my own heart and that which my parents speak of me: "I am a creative worshipper. I am a prophetic psalmist. I am a dreamer. I am a sweet fragrance to God and people all over the world. I am a tree planted with living water, full of good fruit. I’m one who entreats, one who loves. I am a lover of the Lord, and a lover of people. I have been set apart for a purpose. I am anointed with council and might. I’m a box-breaker, I’m a butterfly. I am a burning flame. I am unique, yet I am one of His children, and a member of His body. I am a walking miracle. I am a warrior. I am intelligent and knowledgeable, with an excellent spirit. I am a friend to the discarded and I bring them into the wildness of the Kingdom, the passion of the Kingdom. I am an expression of healing, a manifestation of healing, a manifestation power, a manifestation release, and a manifestation the anointing of God. I am relentlessly seeking the realness of God in this life. I am Terralyn Marie Williams - good earth, a spring of water, a sweet fragrance, and one who is willing to wear a helmet."

God has been SUPER good to me! I've included a bit of my class notes at the bottom for all of you. READ them - so I can share my blessings with you! I'm on track learning guitar and piano. My goal to be able to lead worship by the time I return is within reach. Praise You Jesus!

As you all know, I'm here on support. Since I arrived, I have had $100 come in, which, thank the Lord, helped me pay rent for October. Tuition ($820 for this month) was due Friday, and I didn't have it. I meet with the accounting department again Friday. Please use Paypal or call The Mission to advise them of any support you are planning to send (tax-deductible) toward my tuition. I would REALLY appreciate it! I am not able to drive my car right now because it needs a $1200 brake job, everything is rusted out and it all needs replaced. If you are able to help with that, my walking feet would be supremely grateful :)

I miss everyone! Mariah in FL (expecting with my first grandchild), my family in Indiana, my friends in Indiana and Florida, and especially the Vineyard. I miss my Mom. I love you all!!!

Please send donations for tuition to:
THE MISSION
6391 Leisure Town Rd.
Vacaville, CA 95687

These donations are tax deductible. Please do not write anything on the "Memo" portion of the check. Attach a note including my name and the purpose of the doantion, "tuition".

Please send donations for car repair, housing and meals to:
Terralyn Seilkop
555 Elmira Road
Vacaville, CA 95687

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Class Notes:

Dan McCollum 10.06.10
Living on the Right Side of the Cross
I’ve been crucified with Christ, it’s no longer I who live - the LIFE of Christ is now me. Don’t stay on the cross in death, move forward into the LIFE of Christ and take on His resurrection body.
Even self-control is a fruit of the Spirit – that’s Christ in you! All the glory goes to Christ, you can’t do it.
Forgiveness toward the Cross, freedom at the cross, new life (new creation) after the cross.
New creation – we bear the likeness of the second Adam now, no longer bearing the likeness of the first Adam.
II Cor 5:17 – new creation – OLD passed away; NEW things have come. New – Kenos (new in respect to form, unused and unworn. As respects a substance of a new kind, unprecedented, novel, uncommon, unheard. As respect to substance of an ENTIRLEY new kind) The same word used for “New” covenant, and “New” heaven and “New” earth. Old – Archeas (things from the beginning, original, primal, ancient). “Have come” – Genomi (to come into existence, to come to pass, to arise, to appear in history, to come upon the stage). ANYONE in Christ is a NEW creature!
First born – protocas (first of a prototype) Romans 8:29 – As Christ is now, so are we NOW in this world. God is recreating in us the GLORIFIED Christ.
II Peter 1:3-4 – Participate in the divine nature and so escape the world and its lusts.
I Cor 3:1-4 – are you not acting like mere men? “mere men” Anthropas (human beings) spiritual – nuematicas (relating to one who is filled with or governed by the spirit, belonging to a spirit, a being higher than man, but inferior to God).
We are living people filled with the same thing that filled God Himself.
I Cor 3:16 – we are the Temple - nahas (the Holy of Holies)
Jesus Christ was God, we get His nature. We have the mind of Christ, to know the thoughts of God, to discern spiritual truths.
I Cor 4:1 – we are entrusted with the secret things of God.
I Cor 14: - he who speaks in a tongue speaks mysteries – mysterion (secrets of the Kingdom not revealed to ordinary mortals)
Just living forgiven is great, but what if you believed you were not a mere mortal? You might start acting like spiritual men.
I Cor 3:22 – All things are yours, fullness of power/anointing and the world. The world is Gods’, and you’re his. The meek will inherit the earth. Live in the revelation that the world is your Father’s land. Treat it and its’ people like something/someone that belongs to God and not to the devil. God has given us the ministry of reconciliation. Life is yours and death is yours (authority to raise the dead). The present and the future (not the PAST, that’s under the BLOOD) are yours. All are yours, you are of Christ, and Christ is of GOD.
Draw from the fullness of the cross. Run to it to withdraw FULLNESS of life and glory MORE than you run to if for forgiveness.
Col 1:9-10 – asking God to fill you with the knowledge of His will through all nuematicas (spiritual) wisdom and understanding, so you can live a life worthy of the Lord.
There are things that will come to your life, but you don’t have to address it as a mere mortal.
Eph 4:11 – to prepare God’s people…until we all reach UNITY of faith….attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ. Jesus had the Holy Spirit without measure.
Live this out by renewing your mind. Any place you know what the will of God is, but you are powerless to live it, renew your mind. (revelation)
You don’t have to tear down a truth to build another truth. Truth builds upon itself.
Increase your knowledge of Christ. Earthly Jesus was walking toward the cross, we are walking from the cross. We are walking in triumphal procession, still in the world. II Cor 5:16 – from now on, we regard no one from an earthly point of view, though we once regarded Christ this way – yet now we do so NO LONGER. In the same way you’ve searched out to know the earthly Christ, PRESS IN to know the resurrected, glorified Christ. Because we are identifying with death, burial AND resurrection of Christ. (revelation)
Soaking – impartation – be in the position to just receive
Personal Identity
Most important questions in your walk - Who do you say Jesus is, and who does Jesus say you are?
Jesus prophetic word over Simon’s life became his identity – Peter. The same is true of Abram to Abraham, Jacob and Israel.
We all have both a corporate and an individual identity.
Corporate – relate to each other based on our heavenly identity.
The truest thing in the universe is what heaven/God says about you.
The part of reality that we control has been shaped by what you believe about yourself.
A primary way to find out more about how God sees us is through personal prophecy.
What we’ll do is future tense, but who we are is present tense

Graham Cooke 10.19.10
II Sam 5:17 – Rephaim – a place of stubborn resistance. Giants live there – symbolic of a place in your life where you’ve been defeated over and over. Geba – that which is raised up. Geza – that which is utterly destroyed. David followed through all the way to utterly destruction of his enemies.
Sometimes you need two battles in Rephaim areas; one battle to get free, one battle to stay free. So your breakthrough must be followed through to establishment. Breakthroughs are always delivered to the point of our abiding.
All victories must be established, and then built upon.
Victories are always certain and sure; never in doubt in the Kingdom. There is no place for doubt in the Kingdom. The least you should always be is very confident.
Life in the Spirit is really about you reclaiming your inner territory, and occupying it in Jesus name.
Your freedom is established through authority; freedom giving you your anointing.
Everything God does is always relational. Establish your victory in an upgrade in you relationship with the Lord.
Your initial response is always vital.
There must be an emotional release. Part of every breakthrough is the emotional restoration is joy. Pursue joy and laughter as a part of your favor and birthright through Jesus. Be intentional about the love of God.
God gave you feelings; they’re not wrong, they’re important. They are just as important as faith.
You can’t be separated from God love. Stay in a tangible relationship with God.
Faith is never divorced from the reality of the inner man in your heart.
The very idea that God gave you feelings in the natural, that He wants you to deny in the spiritual is a little weird.
There are times when faith must stand alone, and times when faith must take the lead.
God speaks to your heart. The word of God is exploding into your heart, and then rising up into your mind.
Negative emotions leave us double minded in everything, since we are partnered with doubt, fear, etc.
Love, joy and peace lead us into trust, faith and confidence.
Experiencing the point of breakthrough will involve the destruction of our negativity.
Psalm 27:13-14 – David would have despaired UNLESS he believed the goodness of God. The goodness of God must overcome despair.
All the attributes of God lead us to being delighted. Wait on the attributes of the Lord. Sit and rest in that goodness.
You owe it to the world to be delighted in Jesus. Let desire and delight co-mingle in your own heart.
Emotions HELP us to discover God. The enemy wants to keep your emotions captive. When you’re having an emotional release, don’t stop to analyze what’s happening. You can do that after God has completed your release!
If your emotions have been imprisoned, then so has your mind and how you think of yourself. As a man thinks in HIS HEART, so is he.
If all your thinking has brought you to a place you don’t like, have another thought.
Ask the Holy Spirit to upgrade a good thought to a GREAT one.
Maturity is learning to recognize a negative perception, and bring it under the rule of the Holy Spirit. You don’t coexist with a negative, your destroy it. Immaturity remains when we don’t change our thinking.
Torment is an attack on your mind and emotions to make you think and feel separate form God.
I am in Christ, and HE is IN me – there is NO separation.
When I’m resting in the Lord, I’m resting in Who He is and not what He’s doing.
Your peace comes out of Who Jesus is in you now, not in what’s going on around you.
The life always rises up from within in. We need a mindset that is rooted in our spirit, and not in our soul.
If your soul is not subject to the inner man of the spirit, it will be subject to every other thing around it. II Tim 1:7, Romans 12:2. When your mind is renewed you prove what the will of God is.
The Holy Spirit empowers us to choose the mindset which partners with our breakthrough.
Develop mindsets that keep you moving forward. Ask the Lord, “What is it that you want to develop in/show me now that You couldn’t do in any other moment?”.
Graham’s Mindsets:
1. I am whole person fighting off sickness; not a sick man trying to get well.
2. I have permission to ask and keep on asking, so that I can receive.
3. I will turn my weakness into a joyful vulnerability. When I am weak, I’m actually STRONG.
4. I’m choosing to live life as a celebration. I’m choosing joy.
If you want to be strong, you need a better way of thinking. Be wholehearted in your thinking and perception; determine to become single-minded and focused toward the will and plan of God.
Double minded is defeat by installments.
All our thoughts must result in “YES” to the Holy Spirit.
Philippians 2:13 – God works IN us through His own will
For love and trust to exist at all, there must be free choice and free will. We can decide what we will become in partnership with the Holy Spirit.
The will is where we engage with Who God is deliberately. All breakthroughs must be followed up in the will. All movement comes when our will is in sync with God’s.
It’s only in the area of the will that response breaks down.
The biggest problem in the church right now is passivity. We are living from the outside in, when we need to be living from the inside out.
I’m as full as I can be right now, and I’m asking God to expand me.
If you have a language that allows for measure, then you also have a language that allows for mediocrity.
Sometimes repentance never gets beyond the change of opinion. Only the will submitted to God can produce real, lasting change.
Start praying “Lord be” rather than “Lord do”.
The real battle each day is; who do we give our will to?
Your job is to learn to be the beloved and to rest in that place.
The will is primarily a vehicle for choosing a relationship with God. Your will allows you to be absorbed into His pleasure and delight.
The will allows us to receive love, goodness and strength.
In breakthrough your will engages with how God sees you.
Behavior is the visible thing, but behind every behavior is a belief system. Always go to the root of the tree. What thought produced the action? What is empowering the will?
The will leads us to belief, and the believing transforms us to a place of obedience and trust.
Part of your expression of your will be joined to god’s, is that you will be rejoicing and giving thanks. If there’s an absence of joy and thanksgiving, the problem is the will.
The will partners with confession. Confession is where we agree with God and say the same thing.
The will engages with proclamation. There are situations where you need to announce who you are.
Your follow up must deliver you to a point of abiding. Develop your reclaimed territory, and EXPAND it. Col 3:10, John 15:7 (IF you abide - ask what you will, and I will do it).
ABIDE – to stay in a given place and dwell there with expectancy, resting with joy, relaxing into peace, and basking in the love of God. It is always connected to an experience of God’s nature. In the delight, comes a determination to STAY here. A real relationship with Christ is always determined by delight (Psalm 37:4).

Fun Trip Vidoes

2010-10-05T00:48:00.004-05:00

Hey Everyone! I'm going to post some notes from class and more great stuff tomorrow - so look for that! In the meantime, here's some fun videos from my trip from Indy to CA (which ended up taking 5 days instead of 3 lol). Enjoy!

I know...tons of fun!

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I'm in Ministry School!!!

2010-09-08T22:27:00.005-05:00

Yeh!!!! I made it here alive and well. I suppose there is a lot to learn in the journey - since it took me a full week to get here! But I took some beautiful pictures with my phone. How could you not? This United States is so AMAZING!

God saved my life twice in Kansas. I affectionately have dubbed it "The continental Bermuda Triangle". On the far east side, I smelled something weird in my car. Just after that, I hit one of those blown tires on the highway and heard something snap. It was late that evening, and I had a feeling I needed to stop for the night. I spent the night at a Quality Inn and made an appointment at the local auto repair. I found out from the repairman that what I smelled was exhaust fumes leaking from my rusted mufflers into my car - while I was driving! I had wondered why God kept pressing me to keep my windows open! I also cut the ABS brake line with the tire. So, $150 later, I had two new mufflers and an awareness that I need to avoid braking quickly :)

I traveled several more hours, almost out of Kansas, when I tried to put gas in the car. Well, it poured right out of the bottom. Kinda hard to get to Cali from anywhere when the gas you put in drains right out before it even gets to the tank! I called the nearest Ford dealer and stopped by. I stayed overnight while waiting for the part, and finally got back on the road the next day after $430 went into the car.

Then the good part came - Colorado and on! ALL so beautiful :) I LOVE mountains, and the Salt Desert, and Lake Tahoe! Vacaville itself is scenic, with mountains and blue skies. So far so good!

School has been amazing so far. God has already spoken into my life and stirred my heart. I met Graham Cooke, and lots of other new friends. I have a cool new roommate named Sarah - how we met is a whole other AWESOME story - and we've found an apartment to share with two other students. And I think I found a job coaching gymnastics just a few blocks from our future apartment.

Please keep me in your prayers! I am REALLY short on cash, and need provision immediately. I'm looking forward to my new job - just need to make it through the meantime :)

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Tumble Time Fall

2008-08-19T16:24:00.005-05:00

Ok so clearly I need to update this more often!

Anyway, todays' post is to keep my Tumble Time coaches updated.

I guess I'll write more when I have more time!!!

Here's a link to the new calendar:

http://www.google.com/calendar/embed?src=6tqhh0572bsu6mqctt9tuqaa4o%40group.calendar.google.com&ctz=America/New_York

I Need a Nap

2007-03-09T13:13:00.000-06:00

It's been quite the crazy month around here. If I were a rock star, I'm sure all the rushing around wouldn't bother me in the least, but, alas, I'm a single mom running myself ragged. There are positive and productive results, of course. Mariah has a bang-up 14th birthday bash. It was her first co-ed party, and the boys were lining up like it was ladie's night. I had about 25 kids there, at least half of them boys that I spent most the night trying to keep off the girls. Mariah's 2nd cousinNick was there, and my support group (Mom, Dad, Mona, and Rachy) showed up too. It was raining snow, or sleeting, or whatever, so I really appreciated having some of my friends show up too! I love being Mariah's mom. She's adorable and compassionate, and beautiful to boot! God has really given me a gift I don't deserve, and well above what I could ask or imagine. As with anything in this life though, being the mom of a dream kid can be a nightmare! Trying to balance freedom with responsibility is hard enough to manage for myself, and trying to simultaneously teach Mariah how to keep the balance is driving us both nuts. I'm giving it my best shot though, since I know she only has one parent to give her ALL she needs to make it as an adult in this world. Her dad is a wonderful man, but not having him in the house everyday means most of the child rearin's on me! Am I able? I guess we'll just have to wait and see....

I am ready to branch out more artistically. Things have tightened up so much at work that there is abolutely no room left to be creative. And all I do is cut and paste, cut and paste, all day long. Not sure I can stand it much longer! So, I figure if I allow myself more time to be creative at home, my job won't drive me so nutty. I went to the library and got some instructional videos on guitar. I can't wait to check them out! I have spent some time in Corel, just playing with some of Mariah's photos. It's fun to manipulate in digital. It's like being some modernized version of Picaso. I like to draw too, but I have gotten to that yet :)

I think too much on the weekend....

2007-02-12T08:55:00.000-06:00

So, I've made a bit of self discovery this weekend. I realized that I'm trying too hard to fit in here (believe it or not!), and well, anywhere. It only adds to my daily stress and does nothing productive in my life. I have decided to give myself a break and stop trying to be such a hot shot. The truth of the matter is that I am not some super professional and I never wanted to be. I am singer whose only passion is to sing. I go to work to produce a healthy lifestyle for my child and provide her opportunities for success. Reality is that when she has moved on and grown up, I will pursue music, not an office profession. I will most likely get involved in full-time ministry or charity. That's who I am. I'm done playing a part that just isn't me. If I am going to continue to be a good mom, I have to shake some stuff off, and return to my core, and find my strength. I need to focus less on how to "climb the ladder", and more on how to play guitar, write music, and draw again. I know everyone else thinks the ladder is the best way to go, but if I'm going to climb, it's going to be toward my goals, not someone else's. In the next four years, Mariah is going to become more and more independant, and if I don't return to myself soon, I am going to find myself alone and unhappy when she's gone. Time is only wasted when you don't learn anything. I've learned a lot. And there's more on the way! So, if you see me ditching my suits in favor my classic "Terralyn" style, just smile.....the rose blooms one petal at a time, and you're watching it's beauty unfold. Oh...and check out how cute Mariah is....my little miss priss :)

Don't File a Missing Persons Report Yet

2007-01-24T14:56:00.000-06:00

Ok - I have little excuse why I didn't blog for ALL of December, but, alas, you're dealing with Terralyn here. Not that there hasn't been lots going on. Thanksgiving was fun - I went to my sister Tamara's house. I finally got some time to chill with my best sis all by myself - well, if you don't count the herd of children always gathering around. And my totally awesome brother was home from the Peace core for most of the month of December. That rocked. I actually morphed into some kind of uber-mom, making cookies, and being all domesticated. I even bought a mixer! Mariah got the video IPOD she really wanted for Christmas, and I don't think she even remembers anything else. Thanks to our friend D.J. - there's no way I could've gotten that thing for her! My sister has 5 kids, and they were all a riot. Delaine and Dominique were so animated, and Samara was cute and gaseous all at once. Tommy and Tiffany are just like Mariah, trying to be 18 when they're 13 and 14. Oh, well, Tiffany just turned 14 and Tommy will be 15 at the end of the month. Mariah will catch up in February! I've also got to spend some time with my best girl, Mona. We are karoake queens! She came with me to my annual office party and we TOTALLY rocked the house. I liked the gift she got me for Christmas so well that I cried on the spot. I'm so cute :> Mariah is growing up so fast....I'm actually in the process of putting the brakes on her now. She is doing some tutoring right now to help her with her grades. The poor thing has Algebra to deal with already....and not exactly a mathmetician at home to help her! Keep her in your prayers, she's gonna need it :)

It's All Good

2006-11-15T11:48:00.000-06:00

So I know, I totally freaked ya'll out with that "Recall" post. It just helps to get your feelings out sometimes. For the update, Paul and I did finally get a chance to talk, and I think the closure from that conversation really helped. Ya'll all can call off the dogs now, unless you have some other issue with him :)
This is the first year I experienced Halloween. I was raised, and have spent my whole life, believing that it was the devil's day and that I should have nothing to do with it. But, I was also raised to believe that anyone who thought differently about religion than me was to be avoided, and I put that crappy mentality far behind me uears ago. So, we have progress. I am learning to accept people, events, and opportunities for what they mean to me, and not to someone else. Of course, I don't really know what alot of stuff means to me, since I've never really had the chance to find out. So I guess you could call this part of my life a blindspot. I'm just glad to let it be my blindspot. All in all, Halloween wasn;t nearly as bad as I thought. Of course, I didn't dress up, or go to a haunted house, or go trick-or-treating (Mariah did), but there's always next year. I did enjoy a haunted hayride, but the only scary thing about that was being in the woods! Oh, and I am not going through some cornfield maze. That just freaks me out!!!!

To pretty to hate

2006-10-24T14:58:00.000-05:00

Ok - so I hate the cold, but the Fall colors around here are too beautiful to hate. My buns are freezing, and it's not gonna get better, but at least I have great sceenery to warm me up. When the snow hits, it will be WAY colder, but it has it's own beauty. The picture of the red trees is right down the road from my house. So awesome!

Recall

2006-10-17T10:01:00.000-05:00

OK - forget everything I said in my last blog about Paul. I withdraw my kind thoughts and cherished memories. Up until this morning, I thought that love really did conquer all. I thought that choosing to love someone whether they hurt you or not, is where it's at. Well, I was wrong. Love doesn't conquer all, only what it is given access to. If someone doesn't want your love, don't give it them. You're not bettering yourself or them by giving them soemthing they don't want. It's totally draining, and you end up feeling like a piece of crap when the only time they contact you is when they want something (even AFTER they hurt you without cause). I have come to realize that just because a person is your treasure one day, doesn't mean they won't turn on you the next. And holding on to what you remembered them to be is just living in a dream world. NOT REALITY. So, in order to process this bull crap from such an adversary, I withdraw my last statements of him and our relationship. I have decided to try things the way everyone else deals with jerks that act like that. Call it what is. Paul is a jerk. His new girlfriend is also full of crap. And they both treated me like crap so THEY could "move on". And since he won't return my calls or emails unless he wants money, I am taking my anger out in a public forum. Be forewarned, I'm pissed off and I'm not taking crap like this anymore. So don't talk nice to me about either of them. I am not going to be politically correct or "Christian" about it. After all, no one's being "Christian" to me. He could have moved on without being mean, like I did a LONG time ago. But he had to literally CUT me off. And you know what? That's not going to happen again. No more Ms. Nice T. Don't think you can walk all over me or my crew without a fight. I won't take this laying down. I publically stated that his memory was to be cherished, and now I publically RECALL that statement. No treasuring necessary.

Yes, I even bore myself....

2006-10-13T09:58:00.000-05:00

So needless to say the lifestyle up here is TOTALLY different than in Florida. I'm still trying to get used to the thought of "hanging out" meaning go sit in someone's living room and watch football and play Euchre. Huh? What ever happened to gold ol' getting your hottest gear on and heading for the latest clubs to party till the sun comes up "hanging out"? And it seems like EVERYONE my age is married, especially if they have kids. There are some Carmelites (the city I live in) that are older with kids and divorced, but noone my age. And alot of the people that are single are hyper-fixed on their future mate. I'm just not used to that train of thought! But I am trying to fit in. I figure my friends and I can meet in the middle. We won't club EVERY weekend, and we'll be home before 3 AM, and I'll conceed to a few bonfires and random card games with a smile. Oh, and since there are apparently NO single guys my age that are brave enough to chase a wild child like myself, I've taken to dating the younger crowd :) Hehehehehehe :) So, in the pics you'll see my new "crowd" at one such bonfire, acting as wild as they know how. Oh, and no, I wasn't high at the time. I was just smiling so much from having such good, clean fun that my eyes disappeared!
On a sadder note....my x-boyfriend of almost three years who became one of my best friends this whole last year, has randomly decided (not a week after promising to be my "friend forever") to "cut ties" with me. Needless to say, I am devastated, and unable to understand why anyone would turn on me like that. Well, I do get it. Basically, he's started dated an old mutual friend and she somehow now totally wants him as far away from me as possible, since I'm such a "negative force" and all. And apparently "God" does not want people who were once in a relationship to communicate with each other once it's over. Funny, "God" wasn't to upset about it before he starting dating my old "friend". Do I sound OK with this? No, I'm not. But, alas, time heals all wounds. In the meantime, I would like to commemorate this time in my life with a reminder of the good times Paul and I shared, and that I will treasure forever. And remind you all, that love covers a multitude of sins, and sticks closer than a brother, and that's why it's so rare. But that makes it precious, and important enough to remember.

Oh, and just to bring a smile back to your face and mine, I have included an image of TRUE love. What?! It could happen!!!!

Dreams really do come true....almost!

2006-09-21T09:17:00.000-05:00

Sooooo...I had the fantastic experience of not only sitting in but also reving the engine on a one of a kind Carrol Shelby autographed 1969 Shelby that was actually the perfect color - Blue! I was so excited I had to hold back the tears :) And I look really cute in it too! Someday, she will be mine! Ahahahahahahaha (evil laugh)! Anyway, this week has been really hideous, and I'm totally hatin' life right now, but I know good things always come back around. Maybe my little Shelby experience is just a preview.... :)

Bragging Rights

2006-09-01T09:18:00.000-05:00

Yep, I got 'em. I have a numero uno, class A, top of the line daughter :) She's so beautiful inside and out -and having a fabulous year!
She made the cheerleading squad, and is really putting her all into it. She made up several great cheers so far that the squad is already using. She also was elected Student Representative in her class. The students elected her based on a speech she made in the classroom. I am so proud! She's made lots of really cool friends so far, and we've been keeping really busy!
In a few weeks we will head to the ProScout Conference (www.proscout.com) , where she'll get her first taste of the modeling world. We'll get some face time with national agencies, and hopefully find one that wants to work with her. So please keep us in your prayers!!!! And yes, I AM BRAGGING!!! :)

Home, Home on the....BEACH!

2006-08-18T09:02:00.000-05:00

Wait...did I even go to the beach? Well, I did for three hours. Does that count? I wish I had more time there - I'll get to that more next year!
Mariah and I did have TONS of fun! I got to hang with my gurls, and Mariah did too. We saw people from every phase of our lives in FL. I saw my high school friends, friends from when Mariah was a toddler, some of Mariah's Aunts on her Dad's side, some friends from Faithworld, and freinds from Storehouse. I was sooo happy to see everyone and be in a familiar place, surrounded by familiar sights, sounds, and smells. I was even happy to be in the heat! I really miss that warm feeling all year long! On the way home, we stopped and saw my best friend A in SC, and Mariah got to see Bri and Ashliegh. I wish I had wings so I could fly around and see all my friends more often. And my silly brother in Albania :)

ROAD TRIP!!!!!!

2006-07-28T14:07:00.000-05:00

OK - So I'm so excited to vaca in FL. It's weird, I've never been on a vacation TO FL. Usually I'm trying to get the hell out of FL. Now I'm literally itching to get there. I miss that intolerable sun! I'll be there a week, and I'll upload pics when I get back. I know, you're already on pins and needles.
A few weeks ago we had "Family Night" with my company, DLZ, and my parents actually went. BOTH of them. And we had a great time! I think it's one of the first sheer leisure experiences I've had with the two of them together. Way cool. Could totally do it more. My friends Rachel and Mona got to sit by me too. We three always have a ball. I am so blessed to have such good friends here already! I thought it would take WAY longer. You know, I'm not that easy to get. I'm easy to get along with, but not that easy to get. And my girls get me!
I am loving living here. I'm settling in, and I even really enjoy my job - no matter how much I beotch about it!
Mariah is going to come home next week. Actually, I'm going to FL to pick her up. It will be back to the mom routine. I have a teenager! She is trying out for cheerleading as soon as we get back. Pray for her! She has really been working hard to make the team.
I started speech therapy. Turns out I have LPR (a form of reflux), which has been a real irritant to my throat. Basically, I've had to totally re-vamp my eating habits - but I'm cool. I can see the difference already!

Yes, I am still alive

2006-06-13T13:34:00.000-05:00

Soooo.....had a couple of eventful weeks. Mariah left for FL to see her Dad last week. Booohooo. She's my angel. I miss her lots already. She's becoming a woman quickly. She's already taller than me, and she knows it. She still looks alot like me, only better! Good thing, since she's determined to be a model. She'll be back in a few weeks, so I've decided to enjoy my freedom. PARTY TIME!!!! Paul also came up to see me last week. That was fun. We went rock climbing with Mona at Climbtime.
That was hilarious. We were all so gung ho the first few climbs - then we all seemed to fizz out at once. I'm not really supposed to be doing anything risky, but oh well. I think I am healing pretty well. I still have some swelling, but I don't care. I can breathe sooooo much better. I sleep through the night and have much more endurance than I ever did. I think my doc did a fabulous job. I may look a little weird for a while, but what else is new? Oxygen is a FABULOUS thang!

Don't Know Whatcha Got...

2006-05-23T09:30:00.000-05:00

OK - So I am completely homesick the last few days. Not sure if there is a particular reason. I am really doing well for such a big move. Indianapolis is very cool. I like that fact that it's not too hot to enjoy outdoor sports. I miss the MANY sunny days we had in Florida, though. I miss the beach, and my tan. I just found out that Indianapolis only averages 90 sunny days per year. That's wack. Isn't lack of sunshine and depression connected? No wonder all the snowbirds fly south for the winter. When I get overly homesick, I look at Mariah's picture and remember that this is the best place for her to spend her teen years. We can always return to FL when she gets out this stage. The sun will still be there. Unless there's a cataclysmic earthquake and it falls off into the Atlantic. Of course, I could get blown over by a tornado in the meantime. Or fall off my bike again :L)

All in One Piece

2006-05-19T13:09:00.000-05:00

So I guess it's not that smart to talk on the cell phone, while riding your bike home in an Indiana Monsoon, while crossing an intersection, 3 weeks after having facial surgery. How do I know? Well, I wouldn't know anything if I didn't find out the hard way. All I know is a silver Honda appeared out of the blue. Next thing I remember, I'm flying over my handle bars. I slide onto the concrete like a runner into home base, careful to keep my head up. I just promised my doctor a week ago that if she would let me ride, I would stay off the mountain trails so I won't fall down. The look on the driver's face was enough to remind me that I was glad to be alive. I picked myself off the road, gathered my bike from the trail, and dug my phone out from the mudd across the street. In the words of Aristotle "The gods too are fond of a joke." - and I just enjoy silly moments as much as the next guy :)